Usually men don´t tend to notice me and I am not surpised because flirting is not my cup of tea. I was strolling down the Tivoli park the other day and there was a man sitting on a bench (staring at me). I wouldn´t see him but it was impossible not to notice his energy field. I continued my walk with a smile on my face. When I arrived to the city centre, he popped in front of me inviting me for a cup of tea. So we went for a drink and he told me how he couldn´t resist me, so he ran all the way around to outstrip and surprise me. He told me he was German. I replied by telling him how I´ve been to Germany several times, mostly roadtrippin´. Then I added I prefer going on roadtrips to the Balkans and shared my passion for the Balkans with him. It was only when he looked into my eyes (which changed their color because of my passion for The Balkans) that he decided to stop throwing dust in them; ˝Actually I´m not German. I´m Albanian. I was just afraid you won´t like me so I lied.˝
I told him: ˝I felt you´re from the Balkans, that´s why I went for a drink with you. I like Albanians. I like Germans . What I don´t like are liars.˝
MEANWHILE ON FACEBOOK
Few men are sending me private messages with creative outbursts with the dimension and extension of HEY. Some of them are using this ˝über-creative˝ phrase for a long time, and they are not really surprised by the fact, that it doesn´t carry them far… To be specific; it doesn´t bring them anywhere. But they are persistent. They wait for a month or two and then they try their luck again; by using the same trick : HEY. Sometimes they have a sudden brainstorm and they add HOW ARE YOU or how is it going…to their HEY.
One is very courageous; he avoids hey and goes straight to an invitation for a drink. I feel like being in a company so I say yes, but he answers he cannot go because he´s sick at the moment. Another one is openly inviting me for sex and when I turn him down, he deletes me from Facebook and tries his luck with some other women, some of them are my fb friends so I can see his cheesy comments.
POTENTIAL DATING ONLINE AND OFFLINE LOOKS QUITE SIMILAR NOWADAYS;
Dull and dry-as-dust on one side, pervaded by game playing on the other. Sleeping or sweeping through consciousness and denials. Why is being honest so hard for so many people? Why are they dreaming about soulmates, without getting in touch with their own souls? It is not possible to meet your soulmate if you are avoiding knowing your own soul! Fake doesn´t have the strength to move the feelings, to awaken your soul. Fake can bring you many things and followers, but it doesn´t bring you tantric experiences. We all have so many false ego parts we need to shatter on the way, why would we delay the process of self-growth by additionally putting masks on?
Fortunately, there is another option, TANTRIC WAY, WHICH IS THE ONLY WAY to get my attention. First step is always a process. It involves creating pure space inside of you by getting rid of repressions in your body, dust in your senses and cloudiness in the mind. All of the following steps are based on radical honesty, that really deep sharing that creates REAL attraction and REAL magnetism. Tantra liberates you. But it does not liberate you from your responsibilities, it liberates you from all that is fake in you. That is why complete surrender is needed.
I am opened to fully surrender. I am not opened to sacrificing anymore. Sacrifice would mean spending my time with a man who doesn't appreciate me and my time enough to do his very best. Do his best in opening himself to himself, me and the creative process of something bigger than us.
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